Day 66 of 100 intentional reflective steps.
A friend died. I hate dead people.They remind me of all the things I wish I could have said or done to interact, love and experience life with them. I don’t think of death in mysterious beautiful ways. I experience it with irritation and impatience for the ceremonial aspects to be over so we can all move on with life. Once death occurs I know nothing more can be done for or with that person so I would just rather carry on about my business thank you very much. I’m not interested in magnifying the sadness by looking at pictures or telling stories. Lets have buffet, pie and church coffee and carry on.
I’m really not as callous as all that. I have just seen too much. I’m oversaturated with pain and grief so I would rather ignore it than swim through or try to absorb it.